In hindsight

Time.

It's such an interesting thing. Sometimes it drags (hello Monday-Friday) and other times it seemingly goes at warp speed. We can't bottle it up, nor go back in time as much as we wish we could.  When I clicked on my timehop app on my phone I was all too well reminded that two years ago today was my first day back at work after having P. As soon as I saw the photo pop up it hit me like a ton of bricks. I remember taking this photo and subsequently sobbing after I put her to bed that evening.

Those first couple of weeks back at work were difficult. P was still not sleeping through the night and every morning I left her it felt as it my heart was breaking all over again. Honestly - she was just too damn little to leave - even with a generous maternity leave of 4.5 months. America has maternity leave so darn backwards.

However now, two years later, I can honestly say that I feel like everything was a blessing in disguise. Had I not returned to work I may have never developed my love of photography to the point of making it my other job. Maybe one day - my only job. Sure I likely would have picked up the camera more but I don't know that I ever would have begun taking photos for others.

Photography brings me so much joy. I love creating, composing and capturing details of our families life just as much as other families lives. After a great first year in business I am so proud of myself. I am proud that I did something scary. That I tried something new. That I allowed myself time and time again to be "uncomfortable".

I guess this is just my way of saying that even when you think things don't go your way - they just very well might be. You just need to give it a little time.

How simple it is to see that we can only be happy now, and there will never be a time when it is not now.

- Gerald Jamplosky